Hmm... I am just so speechless. I haven't seen a well analogous explicit mode of writing like this before. I must commend you for this unique post and I am very proud of you @shello.

I love your attitude towards T, S, K and R. I think S was having a form of grudge in you because that reason isn't really genuine enough leaving you and others. I felt sympathy for S about his mental breakdown.

Lols.... Why do you say I won't come back again?

I love this concluding part.

"Now that I know for a fact that I can't change my fate I don't want to be here anymore. I don't want to be alive anymore."

But!!! Everytime I think I have it bad, someone else has it way worse than me, I have to be brave even now. Even if I can't see the next move, I have to take a step.

This is the motivation you need most @shello.
No matter how difficult your situation is, there is someone out there experiencing greater difficulty compared to yours.

Thanks for sharing this lovely post @shello with love from @hardaeborla