I know for a fact that it isn't. Not on a personal level at least. When meandering into government and justice system it gets narrower. But personally I have chosen to live when I could easily have died. I did that from experience, intuition and determination. That's no illusion. And hardly a matter of turning on and off switches. More like how much on and how much off. Something that doesn't exist in the binary world view. Which is much to simplistic.

Well, well. Slightly off topic. To my surprise my computer copes with me with the occasional kernel panic. Whatever that is. Something on-off.