Emotionally and Physically Exhausted - Can I rest now? - My Actifit Report Card: April 10 2019

'ello everyone.
I'm so glad Monday is over. But wasn't there supposed to be a weekend between Monday and Tuesday or something like that? 🤔

The past couple days was mostly a blur, just going through the motions of the day. I certainly feel guilty when I have no idea what to work on at work and there's a mountain of tasks to do. I can imagine how frustrating that would feel for a developer. Can't think, no code I would assume. I can't wait for to have subordinates again that are more independent and tech savvy. Not having them and picking up the extra slack from their absence is exhausting. It's killing my drive to problem solve the complex issues or to be thorough in my work. I feel so far behind compared to my fellow co-workers and confidence is fading. Maybe I've been in this position for too long and hoping to be doing more fulfilling things. Hopefully when school is done I'll go to better places.

Kumano drawn by BlewAndWhite

I'm mopping more so at work these days. Feels like I'm getting bashed on for all my shortcomings when it's a collective effort to complete these past couple days has been focused on long standing tasks that has been known for months. They've been sitting for a long time because they're low priority tasks most likely. I think I'm also stressing out about all the papers I left for school. I have a paper due this Friday, this Sunday. Sunday the 21st and my semester term paper on the 22nd Monday. Then the class is officially over. And when the dust settles I hope I'm still in one piece and not a sobbing mess.

I haven't had the chance to listen to anything really noteworthy. So far I'm just enjoying a playlist of Portal series and FTL. Daydreaming of it raining and lost in my own paradise where nothing is wrong and I'm in peace and serenity. This first song I could have on loop for hours and just lost in my own thoughts, especially while it's raining -loads up rainymoods along side-

Portal Stories: Mel - Soundtrack | 17a - Natural Light by Harry101UK

Next as a lovely build up that is pretty motivating and yet quite elegant I think

Lost Ship (Battle) from FTL uploaded by GameMusic321

Hopefully the rest of the week will be easier. I think if there are more opportunities where I have no idea what to work on and it's not critical it's a chance to work on homework. Normally I frown at the those doing homework at work. But if it helps keep my sanity later. Might be worth doing.

Daily Activity, Moving Around Office, Walking