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in #addiction7 years ago

So it's day five of my alcohol avoidance, and I'm feeling wonderful.

For those of you who partake, I can fully understand how you might have a negative reaction to such a statement. I used to. I would think, "Well, damn, that's great. So happy for you," and then they'd hit me with the follow-up:

You should try it, too.

I would get so irritated. I felt like: if I really wanted to, I would. Just like that. I would just give it up. I would say to myself that the only reason why I had not given it up was simply because I did not want to. I told myself that it was my choice.

But it was a lack of choice that kept me going for the bottle. I hadn't chosen to continue to drink out of enjoyment, I was avoiding the choice to abstain. The angry reaction I would have when someone shared the fact that they had given up drinking was a clear sign that I was not taking control of myself and/or my actions.

I have humbled myself before Him.

I realize now that in my denial, I denied Him.

I have chosen to blog my experience with this choice to abstain and cleanse publicly as a way to humble myself before you, and therefore, before God.

This selfie was taken a few years ago, before I began to enjoy drinking a little too much. It serves as a motive to reach the goal of health that I once enjoyed.

Please feel free to leave any comments below. Any support, sharing of experiences, or simple kind words are always welcome. Thank you!

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Well done you! And posting about your journey here is a good way to keep you on the straight and narrow, of course. You know we are all cheering you on.

Of course! I can't possibly stray now that everyone is cheering me on. Thanks!

I really like your style of writing!

Omigosh, thank you! Ugh, it feels SO good to be validated! Give me all the praise, I love it. ^_^

He will give you strength, and amazing experiences you wouldn't have otherwise spending your time the way it required you to. You will have freedom and joy along this new path. Each day will be new, just waiting for you to fill it with hope and progress :)

Beautiful words of encouragement, thank you.

It's super brave not only embarking on this journey but also speaking about it publicly.

I am on a similar journey focused on discipline and riding myself of certain bad habits.

Keep on keeping on!

Good luck on your new journey! I am currently reading the book "Easyway to Stop Drinking," it has great reviews and comes highly recommended.

Oh great, thank you for the info! I'll be posting on most days, so just let me know in the comments when you've finished and what your thoughts were as you read it. I would be very interested to hear about it. I'll see if I can pick up a copy and maybe we can discuss our perspectives.

good for you, keep going, keep being accountable. people are here with you.

Thank you for your support!

I am glad to see you still going strong! It gives me strength to kick my unwanted habits.

Thank you! I am so happy to have been an inspiration to you!