Happy belated birthday. :)

Your poems are touching, a rare, restless, reaching for another person.

In your poems, think about allowing your love to be earthy as well as ethereal. There are glories to be found in grey hairs and wrinkles, as well as the sun and the sky. You do write movingly about the soul.

It's hard to be apart. Have Vanja recommend a book or poem to read, then when you read it, you tread a path she already trod, you share a mind-space, and later you can discuss that journey and that place.

The moments you feel alone are temporary, the loneliness will pass, but remember that loneliness when you meet again in person, so that you treasure your time together even more. If that were possible. :)