I can imagine! When being a performance artist its a horrible time we are in. Pffff. Am so sorry to read your situation. Quite a few friends I have are in very similar situations, artists, bookers, promoters and event owners. Some of them started doing things virtually, no income but good for marketing. Some others are producing more music, or getting training of some sort. Some of them are too overwhelmed and are still not finding their purpose for the moment. I suppose better to do something and maybe first period take it as it comes. I do hope you can find your purpose and future soon 🎶 😉