What to do with life? Midnight ranting and babbling.. now with painting
It's getting close to midnight here and I'm getting a little sleepy while sitting here in my chair staring blankly at the computer screen in front of me. On my side screen I got the new danish netflix series "The Rain" going that premiered today on, yeah you guessed it, Netflix!
It's cool and it's fun and all to see a former classmate Mikkel Følsgaard on the big screen having success, and even though we were never that close I guess there will be some kind of amusement in telling my future children that yeah, I knew that movie star back in the days while we were just kids ourselves.
I'm still struggling with finding inspiration for steemit, mostly due to the dawning realization that almost no one actually reads what you write and that basically all my upvotes are autovotes and bots, but also due to my work taking up so much mental space that steemit has kinda been pushed into the background for now. I don't know if you can recognize the above (which is slightly ironic since you probably won't be reading this anyways) but honestly, no matter if I write a 1000 words with 10+ pictures, or just make a 100 word post with one picture for a photochallenge, the upvote value will still be more or less the same before doing bidbots and half the comments will be "Amazing view, great picture", even though you put up a totally unfocused picture of a fucking pineapple.
acryllic paint on white tapestry, approx. 1,5m x 1,5m
I did this painting a few years back for a friend and his old girlfriend in their new apartment and it was quite a creative experience as I had never really done anything like it in that size. Sure I'd swung the brushes around before but never in the same scale and while I thought it wouldn't be that difficult I am now that lesson richer - it's incredible challenging!
The motive came from the girlfriend's sister and was a really good representation for all of us back then as we were kinda clueless as to were our respective lives were heading, it was never spoken out loud but I think each of us there could see ourselves sitting there pondering what the hell to do next.
As with all other things in life though shit started to happen and all too soon our little symphony of bewilderment was replaced with some kind of purpose ine one form or another. I started a strange but strong relationship with @iwanderela, my friend finally found a job he enjoyed and the next big love and both girls, his ex and her sister, found their own happiness in completely different directions.
I feel like I've kinda lost my point somewhere up there but I basically just wanted to show you this awesome painting that I'm quite satisfied with myself (which is a rare thing in itself), and just reassure you all that it's all gonna work out, even if you some day find yourself squared down a giant ass question-mark feeling lost and confused.
Have a good night steemians and stay awesome.. looking forward to read your comments on how amazing the view is!
I just finished binge watching all 8 episodes last night. I’m looking forward to the season 2.
I’m amazed to see the scenes in the movie that are taken from the places that we’ve been already during my visit there in Denmark and our road trip to Sweden.
When will you finish watching it? 😊
Hehe I had a feeling you'd appreciate the "revisit" :)
I'll probably finish watching it during the week, I usually watch an episode or two during dinner.. you know, just to keep it alive a little longer than one Saturday
Hey man we all have that feeling. I have talked to a couple of people that had the sentiment that it was hard to be in Steemit. Some have already left, some are at the brink and it got so bad that I had to get help from other people to try and comvince some to stay.
I know the feeling of just being in the autovotes of some people. Votes are good and I won't decline it but sometimes I value their comments as well.
I got a few big rep people that I look up to upvote my posts but never leave any words hahaha.
I would like to share with you a post by one person I highly respect and hope that you may get something out of it. He also has a 30 day steem guide post on what to write about if you are having difficulty in getting inspiration.
https://steemit.com/steemit/@spiritualmax/steem-guide-early-birds-get-the-worm-true-but-you-re-better-off-growing-a-worm-farm
Thanks for taking your time to leave a thoughtful comment. I'm not leaving or about to leave cause I still get a personal satisfaction from making a good post and I've found it really nice to put down my travels in words, even though I'm possibly the only one reading them. But I can't help wonder where myself and steemit at large is going although I guess only time will tell - hopefully the right direction :)
Thanks for sharing the post, I'll make sure to have a look.. all input these days are welcome
Hey man no problem I find you and your travels interesting and I might not drop by often but know that I actively look at your posts from time to time.
Yeah only time will tell how we long we will be in this platform.
I agree as long as it is still enjoyable keep doing it.
Hey there, I am not a bot 😛 I like your humor and the fact that you write like you would talk (I guess). While I like upvotes as much as anybody, I too value comments. Like you I had much more fun exchanging comments on very low profile barely seen posts than on posts having +400 upvotes and 0 comments.
Keep it up, some of us are real and like "real" stories whether the pics are shitty or not 😉
Thanks for stopping by with your thoughts :)
I'm glad you enjoy my writing, I try to keep it low-key, down to ground and with a hint of bad humor, there are certainly enough aloof posts here on steemit and sometimes it's just nice to descend down back to the dirt.
While I haven't tried to have a 400+ upvote post I do agree, I've come to the point where I enjoy the comments much more than the upvotes, just like I always comment when I upvote manually. I mean, that's the least you can do right? ;)
I would 100% agree if I had always something interesting to comment; but when I don't and I think I had a good time reading the article, I prefer to shut up and just upvote. I like to compare it to the Obama thumbs up with beer meme (note that I don't compare myself to Obama) But yes, leaving a comment sometimes lead to nice conversations, knowing the person a bit better and maybe having fun.
Cheers! 🍻
What view?
That painting speaks to me. It is like the variation of The Thinker. I am still at a loss as to where my life is heading or what to do with my life. I still think about it every day which brings me to steemit and how it is related. I thought this platform is something that would help me some goals be realized but after a few weeks here and a whole of posts, I think all I can gain from here is fun. That's better than nothing, right? If I don't use bots, then my posts would not even reach 2 SBD. I use bots to at least pacify me that what I share is worth something. It's like a double effort. I write the words and do posts sometimes done in a day and then I pay for it. Foolish me.
Would it be cooler though if you are friends with the actor? :D I checked the link but I think I haven't seen any of his films yet. Why should I when all I see is amazing view? What view? lol!
Hahaha. So that's why. 😂😂😂
And yeah that's amazing he knows a now famous actor. I guess now I know the feeling of my college classmates when they saw me on a FB commercial vid. 😂😂😂
First of all, I'd like to say that I really read this blog of yours thoroughly. I'm not just scrolling down to get a gist to be able to write something in the comment section. I'm just a month old here in Steemit and I love how I can just write about almost anything. It actually doesnt matter for me if many people will be able to read it or not as long as I shared something good. I don't know but I hope I'll still have this spirit even when I'm a year old here already. But anyway, still continue writing. I'll be reading each and every post you'll have from here on to at least lift you up.
Keep Steeming. :)
I really appreciate that you've read it all, even though it can get a little long-winded sometimes. It is indeed a very liberating feeling that no topics are off-topic but lately I've been thinking more and more about how to contribute to the platform instead of just posting random pictures for one of the countless photo contests.
Your spirit will probably rise and slow as the time goes by depending on your success and personal tenacity :)
Likewise, keep it up hehe
Yes i agree with you about that. It takes time and effort to think of something valuable to post. But I just think of it as exercising my mind. 😅 Hopefully I can maintain this kind of thinking as the months pass by. And hopefully we won't run out of ideas
Yeah we all feel that way abt being on Steemit. Which is why I have a "love-hate relationship" with this site. 😂
But if you are in sales, you will know how to sell yourself. However it is tiring to always have to sell every post you make especially long and quality posts. That's why I am happy that the witness surpassinggoogle introduced ulogs. It's just some everyday blog thing you can post abt your life if you'd like and get more than cents.
Not sure how he chooses which posts to upvote but if you get one at least u get some more SBD per post.
Also just go around find topics u like by using the search bar and interact with those people. Best way to get more friends here. I'm here for the money but having online friends are nice too because you will forget abt the upvotes once the comment threads get rolling.
Also, join big contests you find and like so you can get upvotes without bidbots.
I have no clue to sell myself.. I'm just trying to make content that people and myself finds entertaining or inspiring :)
Big contests can be fun but I've joined a lot of them previously and been using a lot of time and resources but with nothing to show for it. It was fun to start with but then I got new job and it's simply taking too much time to put in the effort that I want to put in it.
I haven't looked at surpassinggoogle's newest initiative but it sounds interesting, I'll look it up :)
Yeah, that's the bad side of Steemit. Disappointing when we can't sell our self or when we're tired of selling our posts or joining contests. Which is why I write on another site too when I have a chance. Makes me feel better when I'm there. If I keep staying here I might rant everyday. Hahahaha.
I'm seeing evidence of power tripping from a few big fish/curators so that's one thing that adds to my disappointment. You have to be part of this or that before they even upvote you. Hahaha, no thanks.