Lesson 5: What Love Looks Like (1 Corinthians 13:4-7)
A REFLECTION ON CHRISTIAN EDUCATION:
1. Selfless love is patient.
I always apply this in my life ever since I was a child. I'm a very forgiving person, and maybe that is why I always suffer the loss. I don't always get angry on things that will make others really furious. Like when the time I had a feud from an arrogant classmate, I forgave her in the end because I'm not letting her win the best of me. Not forgiving her will only chain me to her in my mind, not letting it go will hold me back, so I always knew how to let go.
I think it's always been my nature to forgive. It was a lesson I taught myself in order to protect my weak self, or maybe it was all just an excuse for not being able to fight back? I don't really know, because it was best for me to forget to save myself from more pain.
To me, patience and forgiveness is a virtue that will teach me and help me in the long run. The more I forgive, the more I see, the more I hear. I felt in some way, I won something more valuable even after all the pain my enemies had caused me. I will always be patient. Never will I let other's will and representation stop me.
- Selfless love endures all things.
When you suffered a defeat or a beating, you don't immediately stand back up. You will usually lie down for some time until you finally can move again.
Same goes in life too. During the time you lie down on the floor, you will feel bad and depressed. You will feel like a loser, useless, and it will make you want to quit.
To protect yourself, you will need support in these times, but they don't always come despite people telling you not to quit and to be strong.
Growing up in an Asian household, I'm not allowed to show weaknesses or any negativity. When you cry in front of them, they will get angry, shame you and blame you because you didn't prayed enough according to them. If they found out or you told them you're having anxiety and depression, they will tell you that you're just being dramatic. They will not listen until finally you lay 6feet beneath the ground.
And that is why losing to number fifteen fears me the most, it was the most challenging and difficult to overcome in all our life. A life always depended onto it, but as a culture, it doesn't exist. To fight back, I spend enough time tapping on creativity. I love doing many things, seeing what I've created gives me joy and satisfaction. Drawing, painting, writing, and many other things. It reminds me that I'm not that bad after all, and that everything will soon pass.