Face your fears

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Face the things you fear head on and they will move right out of your way.
Fear will kill you, make you sick, or keep you from being yourself.

Notice that voice deep within you telling you the worse will happen.

You have a choice at that point to listen and think it is trying to protect you or move on.

Some readings from books I read years ago, say tell the voice I know you are here to help me and I am okay. That did not always work for me because the voice comes back stronger.

Let’s talk about where that voice originated
It is for survival since the beginning of civilization and now it from constant programming.

Hearing over and over all the bad things that happen. Try to go a day without hearing something devastating.

The voice constantly chatters, for some driving them mad others to the point of taking medication for sedation.

I asked the voice, who are you?
I begin to ask the question the voice showing up, telling me the worst will happen. Instead of giving it first classroom service, I asked again. Who are you? It silenced.

Then I begin to think who is the second voice asking, who are you.

Creating awareness, I become aware of the watcher watching these voices.

The voices/worries stopped

Then it happened for once the voices stopped in my conscious waking a day allowing peace in my mind. Now room exists like a monkey off my back.

I could focus, be happy, think clearly.

It took me my whole life up to this point to clear my thinking during the day. Meditation is important and brings me to that point. Now I can maintain it.

Warning fears surface

Once the peace and relief is found, the voice/ego is afraid you will not focus on it. So it brings your worst fears to surface. I stay with them. Now I can say bring it on.

The other day, I was caught off guard. Going through some boxes on a shelf looking for a data stick I came across an old blood pressure cuff. The voice came strong. You know your BP is high, you should take it.

I have what people call the white coat syndrome and at one time, my blood pressure was extremely high. Normally due to the anxiety, this creates I would have put the cuff out of sight and felt the fear.

This time was different I took the cuff out and sat down to take my blood pressure. It was high, so high in fact off the charts. How can this be I asked myself? I should feel something physically besides the anxiety I created.

Then I gained my composure and went at it again, only this time the cuff would not inflate. The device was broken, the reason for the high readings.

I did not stop here, I went to the pharmacy and bought a digital cuff. Sat down and got normal readings, for the first time in years normal readings.

We create what we think about

This scenario is for me, created by me to see if I would face it. And the reason for the broken cuff is because in my mind I had created an extremely high scenario and it had to be played out, we create what we think about.

Swami advice in India

While in the foothills of the Himalayas a Swami told me before going out on a trek with others to Babaji’s sacred cave, we must always face our fears. It is like a lion is approaching you. Stand firm he will know and turn around.

For me is it like standing on a track with the train coming toward me. The train will stop. Remember the train is the fear.

Thanks for reading,

@rebeccabe