The Story Of A Girl: My Supernatural Awakening and Astrological Briefing of Current Cosmic Energies.
My Story
(Why don't you take a seat at my table)
I've come to discover that I am a student of Hermetic Principles which was something thats taken me a long time to understand. I survived a severely traumatic childhood, that evolved to a repetitively sexually traumatic adolescence and young adulthood.
Most of my life was saturated in escapism, masochism and abuse that look me 25 years to be able to face. I resisted furiously but eventually the time came to begin my journey inward, where I found a hungry stalking tiger waiting for me in the reeds of my subconscious.
Thats when my whole world imploded, when I was introduced to the unexplainable and began to develop a relationship with myself as the magical, strange and unusual girl I am.
Boy was I freaking surprised.
My "awakening/healing process" has come with some side effects that have granted the development of extra senses and supernatural experiences. But it has all felt like inescapable hell (even by death) and straight up energetic torture.
I'm not trying to be a whiney but good god I have to vent its been scary and my physical body has purged a lot of garbage from a decade of using a opiates to numb my sleeping time bomb and when it went off my cells ignited with the chlamydia of absolution!
Okay, it's out and that's how I really feel. Haha.
The Spirit World is highly demanding and when I was thrown into the dimension of Spirit I faced my Inner Judgement and scrambled to clean out my corroded emotional body.
Truly, I have a universally-binding empathy and compassion for the mentally ill and those who suffer from delusions. It can be very difficult to navigate through the unseen realms of our own subconscious or "buried-potential" (if you will...) and once you open some doors they may never be closed.
The mind is a fragile place and I can only attribute a certain faith in my own resurrection to have facilitated my survival of the impossible.
As I write this I ask myself if its necessary to include this part of me, and I answer back (absolutely) because this IS me and this is the journey I am moving forward on. This is the me that I've kept hidden from myself all my life out of fear of rejection and refusal to acknowledge or accept within myself and this is the me that I have decided to base this platform around. My Magick.
I've struggled tremendously with my self-esteem, nihilism, a god complex and sense of belonging in this world...all of which I am finally embracing no matter how scary (or unreal) it seems. Ultimately my fear has come from a fear of facing my deepest darkest emotions, that have been ever so confusing and relatively haunting. Because of my extra senses and mysterious lifepath, my navigation in the world is much different than most people and I do understand it's unique. I have worked hard to keep my inner child alive. Forever young and innocent at heart.
(true Blue Indigo-go girl)
Awakening
Last year around this time I induced a series of events that were absolutely bloody terrifying and reality shattering, and have awakened in me to a very loud and present state of clairvoyance, clairaudience and clairsentience 24/7.
What does that mean?
I visually see, physically feel and audibly hear energy or as I've come to understand it...SPIRIT which is simply pure conscious and its impossible to understand.
You might THINK that shit sounds cool but its been a terrifying and exhilarating journey down the rabbit hole of cleaning out my own bullshit while watching the complete destruction of my conceptual foundation of reality and caught in a labyrinth of delusion. At least, that was the beginning.
Its left me shaken and I am still working through my own fears, which is a huge reason why I am here. To come out of the "broom closet" so to say and be myself with hopes of helping others, but mostly to ground myself in the human world and build healthy relationships across the globe.
There are so many layers to what I witness but do not and cannot comprehend, nothing comes with an instruction manual and the ego put's up a massive fight.
The more you uncover the less you really freaking know.
All the rules of "what is", "what can" and "what will" have been changed and the future is a whole new game. I have been severely and sternly humbled by the universe in an ultra-Plutonian fashion, as Pluto loves to destroy and transform so the Phoenix may rise to her fullest potential.
Now, a year later after developing my senses and opening my third eye all the way in the midst of an internal Category 5 storm, I'm learning to accept who I am and continue to head on my journey to be a healer.
A journey that's never over and is beginning to shift from despairing and lonely to brave and rewarding.
I can literally feel my throat chakra opening. This is a tremendous relief to me. It feels like my bloody head is being placed upon my shoulders for the first time in my existence.
(Vishuddha: Throat Chakra: Activate!!!!!)
GOALS: WHY STEEMIT?
I am so proud and excited to be here and I want to announce that I am transitioning from traditional social medias to this single platform.
I've recently deleted the Instagram app, of which I had build a platform for myself and became part of a spiritual community. I am happy leave that world behind and I feel my voice will be able to truly grow for there is so much more satisfaction from the Steemit Community which I am eager to engage with!
I welcome you to my inner worlds and I look forward to an exciting journey.
My ultimate goal is to make enough money here to be able to support a traveling lifestyle and explore the many wonders of this glorious planet, learning from her many peoples and documenting her many shades of urban and rural beauty.
It is my dream to see all that this planet has to offer and become a full time wander lust.
(I love photography and nature. I love to edit and celebrate beauty everywhere)
Head in the clouds: The Astrologer Babe
What brought me to study Astrology so ravenously was a series of events that transpired over last February - March. I was able to recognize there was a connection between the events that transpired and the beginning of a heavy downpour of multiplicative retrogrades to come over the next few months.
Because of how terrifyingly the retrograde lessons manifested in my life, I found it imperative to my own cosmo-relationship and despite my rational hesitance I dived in blindly.
Simultaneously, It was also the time of a Lunar Eclipse in Leo and a Solar Eclipse in Aquarius, which marked the first in three sets of eclipses to come over the coming year, leading us to this current Eclipse season beginning yesterday! We are wrapping up something here folks! Yay!
This marked the time when I began to see a glitch in the Matrix and started to see Spirits of a lower kind and colored orbs of some conscious degree. These weren't necessarily "nice" guys.
I still don't understand what I witnessed during that period but its events signified the beginning of a death to the girl and world I once knew as well as the rebirth of the warrior-child I am today: a newborn baby born from the ashes of a long period of pain and suffering.
Over the course of the past full year I have been trying to make sense of my existence and I have been presented with a hard fist full of responsibility and destructive often dangerous predators meant to serve an opposition for my highest good. I have to trust in this service because I have seen the real world of black magic, necromantic spirits, the unseen non physical worlds and been able to walk through it unscathed. Still, I cannot unsee these monstrous curiosities and I must make sense of my visions as best I can as it's significance beckons.
Now post-apocalypse, I have some intuitive gifts and a VERY special and unique relationship with the Universe, which I have to be honest I fear a bit still... which is why I am seizing the opportunity to share my true self with the Steemit Community.
(Hipster CHILLY-CHILL Dog Kiya Will Bring in the Next Segment)
An Introduction to Current Cosmic Energies
- Yesterday marked a Lunar Eclipse in Leo, and it is bringing light to some unconscious or unspoken aspects in ourselves and in our relationships. This affects all life on Earth on an individual, collective and planetary level. We are officially IN ECLIPSE SEASON, ladies and gentlemen we are exploring things that are "coming to light" so to say. There is a Partial Solar Eclipse on Feburary 15th. One day before the Chinese New Year. It is a very stellar time!
- We are also now finally in harmonious February and are about to make another powerful shift into the Chinese New Year on February 16th from the Year of the Fire Rooster (Cock) ^*^ to the Year of the Earth Dog. So after a year of getting universally fucked, we are thrown a nice....juicy bone. (See what I did there? tehe)
- In 2018, We are also now in a Universal Year 11 or sympathetically a 2 year. This is a Master Number, and the shift in energy from the fiery and incoming 10 year (1 Universal Year with a 0, which adds to its spiritual significance and represents endings as well. Aka a total wiping clean slate and rapture of the prior Universal Year 9 's closing lessons). Whatever you have been working on over the past year, you are to Master it this year....and you will. We are in a period of wonderful new beginnings.
As you can tell, there is SO FLIPPIN' MUCH going on in the cosmos right now and we are all blessed by this incoming energy at a collective level as well as individual.
I want everyone to know that right now is a time of great rejoice and we are healing rapidly. I am very happy about this and that has yet to happen.
I want to provide content that unifies us all and helps you see that others are simultaneously growing with you at the same rate. This brings us all a sense of comfort and should show to say that we heal as a unit, so when you heal yourself and grow you are helping the collective heal.
Humanity is heading into uncharted energetic waters and this is a really exciting time for us all. All the players in the Big Universe(ITY) and celestial higher dimensional beings are right here with us offering their support to us all at this time.
My closing thoughts are this: the universe is a mystery and the spirit world is a cartoon. Even the scary stuff is actually cute and creepy, in nature, but if you look at it like a playful and silly adventure the fear melts away.
To My Steemian Friends:
SO since I am new here I want to know a few things about what you're comfortable with or intrigued in.
I have an assorted depth of various esoteric knowledge and experience with many areas of the occult and unknown. I try to bring an objective approach to most of these things and if anyone has questions about anything I post about or wants to know about more parts of my experiences, any topic that I bring up that strikes up a curiosity or you would like me to indulge on or post about thoroughly, let me know and I can follow your lead with the content of the posts.
I am slowly introducing myself, and delivering as much briefing as I can before digging into any of these very dense topics that I feel are important to share. I am always in the middle of some psycho analysis and personal integration so posting on here is just as much helping me through the processes as I stitch together my own long term interpretations. Right now is about to begin so we are all wrapping up our shit and getting ready for whats coming in. Its always all about the now and now has a lot going on! YAS
Also, how does everyone feel about cussing? Because I swear a lot, and I am curbing myself to be more appropriate because I want to remain unoffensive. I would like to know your opinions on the occasional cursing for emphasis. Its really natural for me to swear but this is good practice for me to restrain myself. I think its called discretion. haha new word.
I am brand spanking new to this site and I am slowly navigating my way through it, I feel the best way to learn is to just do and see what happens. I am just going to start producing content and hope to figure it out along the way. If anyone has any valuable pieces of advice that may help me, please leave me a comment! I would and do appreciate all the help and support a newbie can get!!!
I also want to say, this is the first time I have felt so honestly transparent since I can remember. I am discovering new heights of self-expression after such a dark night of the soul. I can feel myself gaining some confidence and gratitude for this tremendous opportunity. Thank you for existing.
&& Thank you for reading!!
- Much love and respect Steemians!
- May all who that the time read my posts be blessed, I truly appreciate it!
XX The Babe XX