I have topics I find REALLY interesting that I want to learn and become better in them, but as I stated, by the time of 10pm when the kid goes to bed and I get some quiet time to use for focusing, my brain is already dead to start working on anything. Things I want to learn are creative things which need brain to work good, to have clear visions and to design them down, but it's so hard to do it after being awake for 15hours already. That's the thing that bums me out.

I have A LOT of motivation, but just feel too dead after 15 hours and if I wake up at 7 am, then 15 hours later is exactly the only time I can really focus on my stuff.