I know the feeling I have been going through a lot of this recently. And going back home (well home is where I am right now but all the same), I met with old friends smoke and sniffed and felt nasty the next day and as you say a clear rejection of this from my body. I live a much more spiritual life now and need to reflect this in my action but I think you need to remind yourself of this once in a while or we would be fully awakened as they say.

Life throws us these challenges and currently I having them left right and centre but each time I am able to reflect a little more and deal with them better. To the extent most bounce of me apart from the really deep things. I know where i'm going and have my plan, I am gathering at the moment in many aspects, having lost a lot in the past. I still have my old and dear friends but many just don't give me what I need so contact has dwindled, I still thanks them for their time in the past but unfortunately the connections have been lost with my change of direction. Its tough the the outcome is for the best me. Reiki vibes 💯🐒