You're very kind, thank you! And I apologize for not being more thoughtful and tactful (my intentions are good).
It sounds like you'll eventually give it a shot, and that's great. Don't let the lack of seeds be a barrier, though. If you need, I can mail you a few if you can't find any other options. I have a few varieties in my seed bank, and I'm potentially working on producing more via my current crop of Super Skunks.
Tinctures are fairly easy to make from the dried flowers (bud). Not as complicated as simple chemistry, but slightly more complicated than boiling a pot of food. Most people are able to do it. :)
Your info/advice about health care is appreciated. And yes, the visit went alright, except that she isn't necessarily referring me to a rheumatologist, but probably a 'pain clinic'. She ordered some bloodwork, although some of it is just repeats of tests done when I was much sicker 3 years ago. Sent that sample off today and will follow up early next week. So... maybe partial progress? Not exactly what I was hoping for after suffering so long and waiting for care. You're right that we need to take charge of our health. They're not going to! And yet, when you do so, they act offended and consider you a difficult patient. Bah.
Again, thanks for listening :)