At the moment.

It’s over 5 months already after resigning my job and leaving my country. What does it feels like without a job in 5 months?

Last time I booked my travel in Thomas Cook, I volunteered inputting all my personal info to their booking system by myself. That moment, I sat in front of the computer and touched the keyboard, I really missed the moment when I was working in the bank.

Now I am working so hard to be a student again. I gave up high heels from D&G or Jimmy Choo, and replaced my handbag with backpack. It feels good when I sit on the top of the bus. No more white shirt, black skirt with prefect tailor, no more simple and elegant ear stud. Instead, I am wearing exaggerated ear-drop, it shines and shows another me.

My English is not that good, but I often go shopping or watching films by myself. Sometimes I go to another town or city with my family or friends, try to join in and experience their local life, and try to collect materials as much as possible for my future novel. Yes, I’m planning one.

Someone asked me, what is the purpose of your life? I think that everyone is different. Some of them try to gain a happy family or be someone, even change the world. But for me, it’s just to do what you want to do, to love who deserve to be loved, bring the happiness to my family and friends, then this life trip will be worthwhile.

从离职、出国到今天，已经五个多月了。五个多月不工作是一种什么体验呢？反正上次在Thomascook里订出行的时候，我主动提出自己来输入资料会更快，于是坐在电脑前，触摸着键盘，那一刻特别怀念从前在银行在信托的日子。

嗯，我现在在努力做回一个学生，我放弃D&G，Jimmy choo的高跟鞋了，开始坐公交车坐火车（虽然刚开始一坐下就习惯性找安全带🙈）我还考虑买个双肩书包。我不穿白衬衣了，我也不穿剪裁合适的小黑裙了，我再没有戴简洁耳钉，而是改成较为夸张的耳坠，它们总是闪耀着，宣告另一个我的呈现。

我的英语还不算太好，但我会一个人去买菜，一个人去看电影，周末和家人或朋友或独自去周边转转，尽量参与当地的生活，多去经历有意思的事，同时也为自己以后的半自传小说积累素材。

今天有人问我，人生的意义是什么。我想，每个人都不一样，有的人想要修身齐家，有人想要治国平天下，而我所认为人生的意义，不过是做想做的事，爱可爱的人，给我身边的人们带来幸福快乐，不虚此行，不枉此生。