First of all, I absolutely adore your posts! You are like that Universal sign, that says "There is a way. Try". I say this because I'm receiving them in a different forms all the time =) I first discovered an actual biggest forgiveness when I drowned into the deepest pain. After a very long way of trying to just "erase it", make my mind believe something else, dose it with pills, or even write it on a paper, my heart would still scream. When I couldn't handle this pain at all(not physically nor mentally), I remembered how I used it on some people at school. And it always worked at the end, even if they would consider me weak - I knew my heart is strong and loving. Fear of forgiveness is simply ego. So I kept on breathing and imagined hugging this person, telling him "I forgive you. I truly do. I know It is also difficult for you to take these chances, but I believe If I love you with all my heart, I want you to be happy with someone else. I couldn't give you things she can, but I can still love you without causing pain. Unconditionally loving. I forgive you." And then I also made it even more suffering for me just to make sure, I imagined hugging both this man and the woman he stayed with. Especially her. I also apologized to both of them and imagined them holding hands walking down the road as I was watching. Letting go. For a few minutes, It felt more like suiciding my soul, torturing it to the core of its pain, without knowing If it can actually survive, but long term - I actually became free. Now, If a person would throw me x10 hate, I'd throw them x100 love. For this, is exactly what makes my heart speak with no words, but kindness. Of course there are still times, when I'd say "burning you should be legal" - in a half joking way of course, but I'm learning to cut my ego, before it hits. And still learning. From forgiving my parents to forgiving myself. That is truly powerful. And I think realizing it - is already a huge step. I'm happy to see sooo many people catching up here! <3