I also have had a hard time with that word, and it does describe me yet with a connotation I don't always love. I have a similar relationship with the word 'empath". I heard for the first time when I was already in my 20's feel like it was thrown around and mishandled. I don't like it, and yet it sort of fits so when someone looks at me and says "you're and empath' I try to just allow it to exist as a descriptor. I'm glad to hear you've been flowing, and I am working on my negativity about money , because yes, I feel it just represents energy and there is plenty of that to go around<3