Tired Of Life

in #depression5 years ago

I'm so tired of life.

Theres almost no point in being happy cause the minute your happy something comes to snatch that happiness away. Something will happen to wipe the smile off your face.

My whole life has just been one big fight. Getting yelled at all childhood, fighting with the wife, some asshole boss always unhappy with you at the job, loosing my dad, loosing my dog, loosing a kid, loosing many best friends it's always something.

Im Tired of Always struggling first I had all the money but too many bill's. Then I lower all the bill's and loose my good job and career. Anytime I get money it's just so something else can go wrong and take it.

If I save 4k. Something will happen maybe the washer and dryer and car break that will cost exactly 4k. I mean I cant get a break it  feels like something is trying to kill me. You look in the news government is trying to take more and more of our rights and slowly transition us into North Korea or China (communist countries). Society is growing more brain dead as we drift into a era of sjws, snowflakes, political correctness, and just plain f**king fools.

People believing there are 100 genders, people believing they can deny biology and science and call themselves whatever they want to be etc. Its pure insanity that shouldn't be entertained and I got to raise my daughters in this bullshit. She will never know the awesomeness of the 80s and 90s. This is the world she has to live in.

I'm so tired and fed up. Tired of my money not being shit. I have to pay to live everyday that's all I do. Get paid to pay bill's then pay to go to work and pay more bill's to keep the house. The moment I cant work we loose it all. I been working since I was 10 and welding for the last 14 yrs I'm tired. I cant even get health insurance cause depending where u work health insurance can be so expensive it will take more then half your check then your working to pay health insurance and dont work a bunch of overtime cause uncle Sam will just take your entire f**king check. If you make 3k biwekeely you can easily get almost all of that taken in taxes and health insurance and be left with less than 1000. A welder making 3k bi weekly will be making the exact same as a cashier after taxes so what's the point of the trade? Cause as a welder your having to work whey harder, tons more risk, and danger. You have a skilled trade just to make the same as a cashier after the deductions on your check.  We need our whole check that we work for and I mean the gross not the shit they give us after the cut the f**k out of it. We need better working conditions. Theres certain welding jobs that are literally like something from a third world country.
When my wife worked at her last job they went up on her insurance to 1600 a month
And her paycheck was just 2400 a month (before taxes).
That's why she quit cause whats the point of working at that point ???
After taxes thats 560 she gets each month. 560 after working 4 weeks straight.
That's working to literally pay for medical insurance and if you need to use it for say like a operation she then has to pay a deductible of 5000 that you have to pay to get anything done like a surgery etc.

Endless bill's and taxes where does it end. and people keep voting these stupid worthless politicians in and they are part of the problem. They will never fix anything or make anything better. They are all corrupt and delusional. They are all out of touch with reality and what the American people need. Read some history there hasn't been any point in time where government has made life better for anyone. Especially not for those they govern.

Life is so hard we cant do nothing anymore without a lisence, paperwork, fees, and a bunch of red tape. The American dream isnt the same. It's hard to get the house and dog and white picket fence and geat job etc. 10 dollars doesn't go as far anymore like it used too whey back in the day. You used to be able to afford your entire life ,household, etc on just 1 part time job it's not like that anymore. Takes 2 to make it (husband and wife working) and damn near 3 jobs. 

Nothing is the same as it used to be it truely seems like everything in life is geared towards creating misery.
Like the end goal of work, government, and  anything you do in life is to create more misery in your life. To burn you out.
Work, government, and family are the three things trying to make you kill yourself at all times. Majority of people reading this will experience mental breakdown, burnout, depression, maybe even suicide cause of one of these 3 things in life. Cause at work you have some dumbass boss messing with you pissing you off or making you feel worthless. You start becoming depressed cause all you do is work and your never home or have any "me time" you work your life away just to be not appreciated, never treated nice, and sometimes not paid very well. Well that's a breeding ground for depression. Same with family and for people reading this who are the black sheep of there family you know this all too well. Your looked down upon, not loved or excepted, misunderstood or not understood at all. Some family just cant say anything nice no matter what. And again you feel worthless and meaningless and most family are just toxic. Majority of us need to distance ourselves from our family all together or certain members of our family for our well being and our mental health.

lastly government taking our rights and freedoms. Taxing us and over taxing in places like California. More laws and rules that make it harder to live or start a business and own property and better yourself and be happy.  It reminds me of the companies I've worked for throughout the years. They come up with new rule after new rule and everytime the new rule is usually something that makes the employee life harder and inconvenient and its the same with government.

I'm just tired of living like this locked into this cycle into this formula for life. That's why its important to be nice and kind to people cause you never know what the next perosn is dealing with and going through. I know what the answer is but that's not really the point of this post.  And if I said what my answer is I'd probably get in trouble lol. The point is to vent my frustrations and to show people feeling the same way that I can relate to how your feeling. To let you know that someone else gets it. Honestly it's not going to get better. Even with blogging eventually they will start censoring what we write to the point we wont be able to have a voice anything it's like a slow transformation into a Orwellian society.

Anyway that's my rant.
Whoever's reading this God bless you and Thanks for reading my rant.