This is a terrible situation on so many fronts. I know what that anger and frustration feels like from an absent parent. It's an extreme option but depending on your age and sense of responsibility and self, you may look into minor emancipation laws. There are three very basic things you need to survive: 1. A SAFE roof over your head 2. food & water 3. amazing friends/support groups. If you have those 3 things, you can survive anything if you have the mindset to make a better life. Let me add a 4th: TAKE OWNERSHIP YOUR DECISIONS. The ONLY person you can control is YOU. Release blame because it's a waste of energy. I believe anyone can thrive if they have the mindset to do so.