My condolences on your partner Melinda. That must be a hard loss. But good you have your daughter and son around. I desided to be without MS meds after tysabri and I was doing that for 4 years. I got more and more new leasions in my brain and my doctor told me that because having that active MS I would be limping permanently in 10 years. So I tried 3 more meds untill this one. And it seems to have stoped the action ;) But many of my MS friends in Iceland have chosen not to take meds like you. Well I hope your trip in August will turn out well :D