What your feeling is normal as od as it sounds, some people are Super excited some people aren't as long as you keep working on the bond you two have and will have you'll be fine. Keep a few things in mind when he cries he ALWAYS needs something its never pointless crying, at that size anyway, (I mention this because it can be nerve racking sometimes, if it ever gets to you step out of the room, and/or call me or a friend.

1. I bet your doing great
   3.Even if you feel life has no purpose remember it does now either way because he has to have a purpose you know? With that said who better to teach than mom? Right? :) If you need help or advice I'm here dont forget that