Some time ago I read your story and watched your video. I think you have learned many important things. If you want to cry, cry. If you want to laugh, laugh. If you want to make songs, do them! Everything that does you good and does not harm anyone is good ... My advice: keep writing songs, keep filling your heart with love and kindness, keep making your music and there will come a time when you achieve the balance you need. A hug @stickchumpion