You definitely have companionship regarding this, @rhondak and @katrina-ariel. For most of my life, I did not understand what was going on with me, nor did my friends comprehend. It wasn't until I was in my forties that I met someone who was able to explain it, define it, and then it all began to make sense. That is yet another reason why I often appear to be on the outskirts of the chats on Discord.