a point of struggle for beauty

To you I admire
Somehow this taste must be revealed
All just raged in the heart
Without going out in the dark

I can say but only in silence
Actually I do not want to hope
Too sick if only I want you
When I know you will never realize it

For you to be my prayer at night
Somehow I have to act
The raindrops that come with lightning
Suddenly remembering the hope you made me tight