Accidental Waste
I destroyed her.
I didn’t mean to. I was wrapped up in the web of pain from my first love. If I could call it love. I thought it was at the time, I guess that’s why I ruined this one.
I believed love equaled misery and pain. That’s all I knew so that’s what I gave. My callous and careless mask to hide the never closed wounds…
She came to me so open and pure, her smiles lit up the darkness inside me. How I smote that light so easily… so quickly… I’m still reeling.
My own daemons made everything bigger, more sinister. I believe her intentions were worthy but my darkness took over, spilling out of me because I am but one man.
The shadows are too heavy for one man.
I mutilated the luminesce dream with my conjured monsters disguised as guards. The power of depression is far reaching. And I can’t take it back now.
I watch her wither into obscurity. A sweet memory nevermore.
"Callous" a 5 minute #freewrite Check out the Freewriters Guild hosted by the sunny and sparkly @mariannewest
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This is painful to read. I can feel the emotion pouring out. Ironic isn't it? How one so callous would feel this deeply, yet seem impartial when "she withered into obscurity".
A wonderful entry!
I've been thinking of joining the 5 minute freewrite but I don't know how to start.
Thank you, that means a lot :)
Just click on the link at the bottom of my post above, it'll take you to todays prompt, which is callous. You open a word doc or steemit posting page, set your timer for 5 minutes, and just write. When your timer goes off you finish the sentence or thought, then you go back and just make minor fixes- just your spelling, grammar and punctuation, format it, and post it. You can post it as a comment to the days post by @mariannewest if you do not want to publish a whole post on your own page.
And then you're part of the community! Read others work and join more freewrites :) It really helps your writing! The pressure of the timer trains your brain to capture ideas more cohesively :)
Good luck! I hope to read some by you soon!
Thanks. I'll try it out later.
.........very nice.
I might just dip my toes in the waters for 5 minutes...
Jump right in, the water is warm ;)
dipped in, swam, posted, and back out! lol ....very interesting
Never too late to change and fix things... a thought that came to me when reading this poem... beautiful... crazily beautiful...
I agree <3 Thank you so much :)
@arbitrarykitten
Salutations! JaiChai here.
Loved your post, especially since it depicted "a confession of one's own nature".
Very creative, my friend.
Happy New Year to you and yours!
Namaste,
JaiChai
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Jaichai! How is your New Year thus far?
Thank you kindly <3
And thank you again :)
@arbitrarykitten,
Having a blast! Wondering if the whole year is gon'na be like this?
Standby for all your endeavors to get turbo-boosted.
Feeling some massive good karma coming your way...
Namaste, amiga.
JaiChai
YES! I feel it! 2018 is going to be a phenomenal year of positive energy and abundant prosperity <3
I'm standing by, open and excited for it!
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Too much emotion...I have to put some water in it :)
We men generally replace our inner demons with inner village idiot...
No other choice, now you choose...
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Stay positive.
FD.
Oh that is a very accurate statement! Love it!
@arbitraykitten I could feel the warm embrace of Over $6.00 STEEM, and that made me think of my Kitten.................
Those $6.00 thousand thread count Steemsheets are quite luxurious, aren't they? :)
As others have said, this was definitely a tough read, but that is what made it so great. Callous is quite a difficult word to tackle and to embrace it at its core it can be rather vile.
The power of depression is indeed far reaching...
Much appreciated <3
i'm sorry my friend @arbitrarykitten becouse love don't equaled misery and pain..... Love is a beautiful thing in life... Who causes misery and pain is who we love...... not the love
I hope you understand me in a positive way
I think you mistook the story :) It is from the point of view of a man whos first love treated him with misery and pain, so that is what he thought love was... So that is what he did to the next woman who came along.
nice writing!
Thanks!
Nice post.
Good morning.
Thanks! It's almost 8pm here so good evening ;)
You almost had me cry. Poor thing to be crushed... Depression sucks!
https://steemit.com/freewrite/@mariannewest/day-75-5-minute-freewrite-prompt-dog-hair
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