Dang brother... thank you for sharing and I think on so many levels everyone can relate. Perhaps they can't express it as well as you just did, but can relate. I fight similar feelings and they occur mostly when at my job. I should feel thankful for my career and benefits (as society tells me) but cannot shake the feeling of "meaningless". All I can say is that this feeling fades when focusing on things that challenge me. I'm a habitual problem solver and feel alive when faced with challenging problems.... maybe it gives validity to the saying "idle hands". You are extremely talented and have great things to accomplish. I think the last entry on this post is very fitting! I'm here if you ever need to talk!