wow this is my account, ok cool. but seriously im not going to hurt myself....i was just messin around...but i really do need help...ive been working all my life helping my famlly and others and now i'm just hurting bad trying to survive. I'm sorry....damn. I don't understand my life sometimes. I just wish I could just get a little help after all the help i have given others since i was 11...i'm now 37 in a few days...i'm just frusterated with my life at this point. i hope someone could see this and understand what i'm going through. goodnight fellow steemers. :(...