Love and goodbye in Manila

It's a common rumor in the community: there is no love in this city-Manila.

It's just that the default rule in this place is to protect yourself. But as for me, I'm willing to be brave.

You always keep asking me why I like you. I actually can't give you an answer. Yes, you are sensitive, suspicious, bad-tempered, severely double-crossed, verbally violent ..... You have numerous flaws.

You always say I'm too hard-tempered and don't show weakness. Yes, you are. I grew up in a living and working environment where no one taught me how to be weak and how to be a girl.

When I opened your dialog box at two o'clock at night and asked if I could call you, your timely call was definitely a light in my most isolated moment.

I still thank you for your second messages, your patience in listening to me ramble on about little things, your willingness to spend hours running to me, your willingness to do what you said you would do whenever you said you would do it, and your willingness to use my shoulder as a leaning post when you weren't understood.

I don't want to write about the details, but just yesterday we parted peacefully, thankfully. I was fortunate enough to look at your phone once before, and there were intimate conversations in tone, and photos with others. I choose not to ask anything because I like and trust you, and you promised that you would go home to sleep no matter how late you were socializing.

I didn't go home the other night. This is my bottom line.

I used to make time for dinner every day, no matter how busy I was, and if I got home late, I would always remember to bring a midnight snack, and even when I was drunk, I would remember my favorite soup and make me a stew.

I've seen how gentle and kind you were to me. I think you loved me at that time, too.

The result of my deliberation was that I didn't want to stick around. At the very least, I could have made all the concessions. But you didn't take a step toward me. There is no point.

A message I would like to give to myself and to those who see it.

Things that you want too much will not always work out the way you want them to. That's why I always say, do what you need to do in time and have no regrets. Love well when you love, with more tolerance, understanding, trust and courage.