I read your post last night and waited until this morning to reply. I am a believer in God. Every man seeks God, even you, as your excellent post reveals. Your question at the end is a question that is burning in your heart, is God real, does He care for me, does He even know me? So I will ask you did writing the post answer your question and did the desire to seek God stop or is it still burning in your heart? Seek and ye shall find. Peace.