Nice day for all of you, already approaching the month that many love and that I have been detesting lately, and the reason is simple, the last 3 months of the year is horrific for me.


It seems that my health always has an expiration date, or rather, it agrees to affect me. I remember that in 2010 for this same date I spent a whole week in the clinic (when it could be financed through medical insurance; a great sacrifice indeed), I had been diagnosed with acute enteritis, dengue, salmonella, urinary tract infection and stop counting, in short, I was between life and death, so miraculously I am here to continue living traumatic experiences with my health.


This new episode for me started in 2015 when by the same dates (last quarter of the year as always afff) I was suffering from a somewhat shameful, but VERY painful disease. It was my first experience with a thromboseada hemorrhoid that I had come out from lifting a lot of weight in the gym, but beyond going to the doctor to treat me and be able to get "peace" of mind, I was left with the desire not to have gone ...

Why do urologists, proctologists and gastroenterologists have thick, long fingers?

I felt violated.

Well and not only that, from that first third base medical appointment with my doctor, I was diagnosed with irritable bowel syndrome. I really had no idea that it existed, and that my mother suffers from it and a large part of my family, but I didn't know it was a syndrome, much less something uncured.

Well, now it's taking its toll on me again. For the last 3 months I have been sick with the same pathologies but in a much longer way and with continuous discomfort. I was diagnosed due to the past experience and its similarity, but I had to go to the doctor, I had planned to do it for a long time, but the country situation affects very hard the pocket and well ...

Again I was raped, it's more of a laughing matter because the doctor asks me to put on my robe and I kind of ok, you're going to mentalize that you're going to get your finger in there, so I got on the stretcher, I put myself in the position of a fetus and I almost fell out of laughter to see that the doctor had in his hands a neutral water-based lubricant lubrix (of which I use by the way, it's the best for everything, and it's healthy); I couldn't stand the laughter until I felt the pain of being raped by my doctor.

Confirmed, I was again presenting problems with internal hemorrhoids but at level 1 (the level we have ALL humans) but if they were somewhat irritated, in addition to it I have a shallow fissure that can be the trigger for the continuous discomfort I've been presenting.

Now comes the worst part.

I didn't tell you at the beginning, but the average cost for a doctor's office is $15. With this doctor I cancelled a few bsS. 350 thousand or about 100 steem (@nelyp will say that I always calculate everything in steem), by the way it was the only thing I had in my bank account.

When we sat down to talk about what we would "do" a deep study to discard possible pathologies similar to irritable bowel syndrome and fissure, I wanted to die, because he sent me to do some blood tests, including the test for the detection of tumors (ready until here I arrived), panic took over my body because I am coward for diagnoses the truth, but then I learn to face each disease.

But that's not all, he sent me to have a colonoscopy (noooo) which I have always refused because it is a last very expensive memory by the way, to diagnose and verify diseases of the bowel or digestive. It's a process that my relatives tell me is very painful, and I'm personally afraid of it because they put you to sleep (what if I don't wake up?). But as I mentioned, it is a last resort in case there are no improvements with the following medications that I send to attack the pathologies already confirmed (for now):

In summary

Sometimes we judge ourselves without knowing who is behind the pc or telephone, ignoring that many people spend a lot of work, diseases and misfortunes. The cost of living in some countries and especially my country Venezuela, is very high. It is really frustrating this situation, where if you work is for half a meal or half to survive your health without any guarantee that you live healthy. I have had my head atrophied lately, taking out costs, looking for budgets and even financing to take care of my health.

Let's look at the following:

Blood, stool and urine tests, has an approximate cost of $20, yesterday I went and everything came out in bsS. 570 thousand or about 163 steem (placing at bsS 3500 value)

Medical consultation, has a cost already mentioned of $15, that is to say, approximately 100 steem.

Ecosonogram, has a value of $15, ie 100 steem approx.

Colonoscopy, has a cost of $180 to $250, my doctor is leaving it to me at the lowest value, ie bsS. 6 million / 1720 steem approximately.

All this for an approximate total of 2000 steem, that if I start to see with everything I have tried to gather without doing power down ... I don't have it.

But without health there can be nothing else, health is very important and when it comes to diseases of this type much faster. Some people are going to tell me that steemit is not for that kind of thing, but I will tell them "shut up and be a Venezuelan" because only we know what we are going through, as well as each person in different Latin American nations and the Netherlands. I am going to say a thousand and one times that knowing steemit has been a salvation for me and for many, that what little or much we generate here the great majority has done with much effort. We see steemit as an extended hand that wants to give us help, do you think we are going to refuse knowing the country situation? Definitely not.

The best thing is that I have had people who have even wanted to give me steem to take care of my health for a long time, but I have refused to tell them, give me work, give me something to do to earn that money, because that's how they've raised me all my life, to earn things for my health, because it really feels good. Of course helping each other among friends is not bad, many times I have accepted loans from some here and that is gratifying, steemit is gratifying the truth in every way, only that we must get the right people who make you feel that way, like at home, in family :).

Well this is all I came to say, I better not continue because this will become a road diary, and is not what I wanted, rather is a publication of reflection for all. I am in the hands of God, I continue working to raise money and do things bit to bit, but do them, I hope it is not too late for me, but I will not give up, whether it is in 2 months or more but I will be doing what my body needs, much attention because this can worsen and become a deadly disease like cancer.