All over the place, Not going to the exam, My colleges parents have died, breathing after the exam, and getting priorities and cutting off the good people because they are not ment to be and me not being bad person because of that

Hmm where to start.
First thing first, my director called me one day and told me that I need to work next morning even tho it was my day off because my colleges parents have been in an exident and her mom died and they are fighting for her father. They hit into a bus with there car and think he has feel asleep and tat why all of that happened. We were in so much sock. Her birthday is in 5 days and it is just so terrifying to think that you need to berry your parent at that time We all hope for her father to live.
I do think this situation is just me trying to approve my not gong to the exam but yes, I didnt go and it was my only task with psychotherapist. I failed
And ofc, Andrija called me and was asking are we seeing this week and I said I dont know, i feels like an obligation and chore not like something I want and feel like a nice, free time. I told him that and he started crying, like I am not a bad person, its not fair. I dont know how to comprehend the emotions of others so I was feeling really uncomfortable.
I def need someone whos touch and company feels safe and natural.