It was indeed a boring lecture because I had to hear that over and over again. But the thing is I could not sit alone on the beach at that critical point since my mind would go even wilder

just like your experience, I had some unknown friends and we never asked each other names and finally separated by time, some of them can be met at another time and place some no

I hope you will always have people around you not pushing you into a corner but giving you time to think about what it is that you want for yourself.

I hope you have them as well, I know you get familiar with them along the way, and that is good too.

I know I need a friend who I can talk to, and asking help from. I will not reject the "helping hand" from real close friends and family, and I will ask when I need it.

P.s. giving is easier than receiving, keep in mind that you can also hurt someone, friends if you always reject their help.

I will keep this in mind, thank you very much Kitty