I will try to answer some of your questions. I apologize if my answer later did not match what you expected.

If this is my last moment. The thing I regret most is that I have not been able to bring my mother and family to Mecca to perform the Hajj, which is the fifth pillar of Islam. You may be asking, why mom? Why don't I invite my dad too? This is because my father passed away fourteen years ago.

Sometimes I care about people's opinions, but sometimes I don't care about people's opinions. I care about the opinions of my mother, family and best friends. I don't care about other people's opinions because they contribute nothing in my life.
I am a child born to parents who had strict discipline. Since I was little, I have been accustomed to following my parents' orders even though I didn't like it. I thought that if I followed their commands, my parents would be happy.

If I could go back twenty years, I would want to have my freedom. Perhaps right now, I would be in another country, engaging in social activities.

I want to spend my last moments with my mother, family, and loved ones.

As I think back, it turns out that I have only bought things for everyone, such as medicine for my mother, groceries for the family, paying utility bills, gas, and so on.

I don't know who might visit me in my final moments. I just think, maybe they don’t know that I am about to pass away. Why should they visit me? Why should I blame them? Why should I think negatively about them in my last moments? Shouldn’t I be increasing my worship since I am going to meet God?

I don’t know what they will feel once I’m gone. But all this time, when I have been far away, I’ve seen them cry, and they’ve said they miss me. I just hope I can remain in their hearts forever.