Homesick At Home

Homesick at home
Lonely in crowds
Distracting my mind
Destroying my hope

Eager but unwilling
Idel but guilty
And somehow nostalgic
For when I used to do things right.

Like an army its neighboring land,
Despair invades the heart.
Life takes a turn
Fantasies fade away
Dreams fall apart.

All I have achieved
Was beginners' luck;
Small battles won
Before losing the war.

When did "Happy birthday"
Start sounding offensive?

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If my middle-age crisis starts at 30 yo, does that mean I'll die at 60? 🤔