I needed to earn badly so that I won't get burned and turned to ash literally

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My mother told me yesterday that she will use some of my reserved funds which I will use for my expenses for my dialysis treatment sessions for this month of July. I am still paying a large amount of money per month which is why if I stopped earning money I will just fade-away to burn and turn to ash, meaning that I will die and its that simple because I am the only one funding myself for my survival and without this blessing of ability of earning, I am for certain had long been ceased for existing. Nobody around are willing to help me out financially which is why I am grateful and thankful to God that I am still coping and sustaining my need to pay for these things regarding my continuous dialysis treatment. If you want to get the idea on how much I am spending per month, I am paying a copay of 500 PH Pesos for every dialysis treatment visit per week, but with a caveat and it is this discount promo of one free copay per week if a dialysis patient would opt-in for a three times a week dialysis session. It just means that since I am going for a thrice a week dialysis treatment session, I will only pay two copays per week which has a total of 1,000 PH Pesos. I really can't tolerate a twice weekly treatment session because of the rather "mildness" of the dialysis quality which I am getting and because of that my creatinine and other toxins in my body would build-up so much that it causes me to have a very, very low quality of life. It is because if you would just imagine feeling poisoned all the time which makes you nauseous, squeamish, and feeling sick to your stomach and unable to enjoy food or eat and it is just simply hard to achieve a better quality of life if you are living in that condition for the rest of your life which I did ever since I transferred to my current dialysis center until the Philhealth, our country's universal health care insurance improved the benefits regarding an extra allocation of dialysis treatment session for every member of Philhealth and that had made me to opt-in for three times a week of dialysis treatment session which only started last year because I needed my blood to really get cleaned frequently.

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Even if you are having a diarrhea of cash, your butthole will ache because of your need to pay for your copay and dialyzer aside from other miscellaneous expenses.

So I am paying 4,000 PH Pesos each month for my copay alone and add to it my expenditure for the need to replace my dialyzer which is twice a month. The total payment for my dialyzer is exactly 3,200 PH Pesos because Philhealth only pays one regular dialyzer per month but since I am using a non-regular dialyzer which is called a high flux dialyzer, I will have to pay extra 1,000 PH Pesos to convert the regular low flux dialyzer into high flux dialyzer. I can only use it for around eight uses but for some patients they are using it beyond the usual use of eight. Then after fully using my dialyzer for more than two weeks it has to be replaced again and in that instance I will have to pay the full amount of 2,200 PH Pesos and it is indeed a very hefty price to pay but because of my need to get my blood cleaned better, I have to cough-out money to patch it all up for the sake of my survival. Now the total overall of my expenditure per month will be 6,200 PH Pesos and I am sure that even half of that amount is very hard to source from other people even from my own siblings which I actually do not want to bother regarding my need to pay for these extra expenses with regards for my continuous need to get my dialysis treatments until the day that God will decide to depart from this world. Although I have emergency funds, it will be so financially disastrous for me if another health issue requiring me to visit a hospital would arise, then I will have no choice but to touch my savings aside from my emergency funds since my emergency funds are not that big if you just consider how expensive it is to get hospitalized in a private hospital in any place in the world. Maybe I can go back to the hospital in Manila where I can avail of their free service but in emergency cases, I will have to go to the nearest hospital here in my province where I live. So my need to always involve myself in a rat race of obtaining funds is always there because the cost of living is not getting any better economically and in my economic situation I feel like I have a huge debt to pay and it causes me to panic if my earning would dwindle and the value of my savings to diminish.

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There's so much burden on my back and it will break my back if another serious emergency need would happen.

That is why the current depressed prices of crypto or the Altcoins gives me the feeling of uneasiness which makes me think the possibility of more bad things to happen with regards to the value of the main cryptocurrencies which I am holding to earn almost passively. Although I really have to put an elbow grease on it to make it work for me on a daily basis, I really don't mind working on it for as long as I can benefit because I still find it fantastic to earn online quite substantially in-fact because my work is not involving a pressure or stress but rather a kind of leisure activity which I am quite enjoying to do which is doing a routine written blog or content creation with options to make my blogs more interesting or not depending on what I would decide to do in a particular day. The only stress that I experience for this kind of "informal sector" way of earning money is that I have to write "my world" everyday. However, since I already had gone accustomed of doing it everyday which other people find to be a very tasking if not difficult thing to do in a daily basis which cause s them to burn-out and quit for that matter. But in my case, this type of work had gone to be my leisure hobby considering that my gains by doing it motivates me more in continuing to do it and partly because it helps my mind to get exercised daily which I needed to do because I am just socially isolated comparatively so that at least my mind would not get bored to the point that it would affect my mental health and because of that I find it very mentally therapeutic to involve myself in this kind of niche work/hobby considering that it rewards me in the process as well and it makes me quite fulfilled and happy.

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I am still thankful of course that I have something to fall back on with regards to supporting myself financially because I always find it to be a gift from God which allows me to survive in our ever-changing world full of economic challenges and yet I seem to be comparatively thriving and somewhat enjoying what was left in my life for me to appreciate and enjoy.

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