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I love her and I want to love her until death, even though I can't see her, I can't talk to her, I don't know anything about her, because she is beyond me. It is a light and I am the darkness. She is love and I forget, she is a queen and I am not even a slave, she is order and I am a disaster, she is perfection and I am a tomb. She is everything to me and I am nothing to her. On the top of a beautiful mountain full of unreachable flowers, she was mine, she was at my side and I did not perceive such an act of solidarity with a beggar, with a sinister being who is worth nothing. Before God

accompanied us, now God is with both of us, although far from me. I never thought so much about dying without her, but the small non-existent flame for her is what keeps me alive. I don't know where to go, or what to think, I just live and breathe waiting to see her again, at least to hear goodbye, and thus finish this story. And so, my whole life has become a small light. I don't do anything bad anymore, I don't look at women, I don't have vices, I don't lie, I don't scam anyone, I do my job responsibly, I help whoever I can, because if I lost this love it's because I had lost the direction of life and maybe If I become an example of a person I can be a valuable thing again. So many times I made her mine, and now I look at my side and it's empty, so dark, infinite tears and you don't even notice. I hope you can find a love that does not allow you to see evil and that there are finally happy days in your life. And I hope, after that day, to never wake up again, because if I wake up I'm going to believe it's a nightmare.

Time doesn't pass, I want it to pass at full speed so it destroys me and I am no longer what I wasn't. I fantasized about being a beautiful person who gave happiness, but it was all about her, she was the one who made me great and special. It seems like everyone forgets me, my mistakes haunt me. They are days of mourning and sorrow, I think that one day the days will return when it no longer exists in me, that I can tear that love from me but at the same time I will never feel the same love. But I wake up and I don't have you. Be my peace, be my hope, my future, my love forever. My love, I cannot and do not want to forget you, my love for you is a rebirth of me and if I had you now, you would never feel pain or sadness again, because I would treat you in such a happy, joyful way and full of things and activities. all where you are the protagonist, where you don't miss looking at yourself for even a second. I don't know, that's what I want. Dumb or smart? I don't know, but I can't leave her.