Awe man, sounds like you had a really deep connection to that pup. For some reason, if I am not around, it doesn't affect me too terribly much. I had a pitbull while I was in Middle and High School and she would walk me down to the bus stop and pick me up from the bus stop which was about a quarter of a mile from the house. It was amazing, she was the best dog I have ever had. One day, when I was in college, and moved away from home, mom told me she just disappeared. I thought that was too bad, but I don't think I ever cried too much over her passing. I do know that we could have taken better care of her, but as a kid, I didn't really know. You know? She was awesome. I wish I still had pictures of her.