Only at this time

Only around this time/cjsdns

I didn't know it then, but I didn't know it at the time, but it's so hard at this time of year, thinking about it now, I think that's why...

By this time, the mother is half dead.
I have no energy and my body hurts, so I can't renew if I borrow as my mother said.
Even if you go to the hospital, there is no special disease name.
I just want to eat well and cheer myself up, but eating isn't cool at all.

Even then, the daughter-in-law does things to finish what she has cultivated and harvested.
It's hard, but if you ask me why I'm doing it, I think I'll have to do this to live.
For a child who looks at a mother like that, there is no feeling at ease. As the eldest, it is very sad to see my mother struggling.