I understand my friend, yes it sounds the same you see Exactly God will not give you burden that you cannot handle because He will give you the strength that you need and every circumstance wether good or bad has a signifince when you just trust unto Him... i am sorry to hear about your wife, God is full of surprises I believe He has great plans for you... just keep and believing and follow His teaching s for enlightenment . Tnx God bless