i am

i guess I'm supposed to do an intro post.

you know what bothers me. people who identify as their relation to someone or something else.

i am a mother. i am a wife. i am a teacher.

ok, but who are YOU. have you ever even stopped to think about it.

so who am i.

i think lots of us spend a long time trying to figure this one out. i myself have read more personal development, spirituality, yoga and meditation books that i can count. I've spent lots of hours meditating. done a shit ton of yoga. lots of therapy too.

where has that got me. in a world of confusion it seems. teetering on the edge of leaving my 14 year career. already left the 10 year relationship/marriage. some days i feel like i'm just pushing everything and everyone away until I'm left with just me.

what will i do then.
maybe we need to strip everything down to find out who we actually are.

and that doesn't mean you need to walk away from everything you know.
although that option is available.

it's shutting out the noise.
sitting with all of your crazy thoughts. your guilt. your shame. your anger. your sadness.
and looking at it. really looking at it. giving it space. allowing it to breathe.

only then can we begin to meet ourselves.
only from the dark can we start to reach the light.