Please Accept MEEE

Hello steemites ,

I don't really know where to begin jumping into a new online community, I don't really know if I'd fit in, I'm here because the steemit/Dtube relationship appears to be the cool new alternative to YT. But why don't I "introduce" myself.

My name's Rory, I'm a quirky young man, I've spent my life as a popular outcast, funny enough to be liked, too weird to be loved. My passion is creating stuff, short films, music, animations, card games, stories, blah blah blah.

When I was 20 I made an extremely personal psychological thriller satire thing that was half animated, I believed it to be less of a film and more of a representation of my essence, my imagination, my spirit, whatever. I spent about $10,000 to produce it. At the time I wrote it, Netflix was extremely easy to submit a film to, my friends and I would watch random student film garbage on it all the time, so I thought "well I can do better than that".

However, it took me 2 years to finish it so by then Netflix was a corporate juggernaut. Festivals didn't care for my convoluted mess and I don't blame them, but my concerns had slowly been realized. I wasted my time, my money, and I had nothing to show for it as I sat in my parents house (where I still live) and lost all validation for myself as a creator. My plan was for it to also be weird enough that the internet would recognize it as a incredibly bizarre thing everyone needed to see, it wasnt. It was just weird.

Even stranger, the week I finally had planned to release it, a rather traumatic event occurred for me and my family. After a remarkably nice day at work and at home, we woke up at 1am to our cars having been lit on fire. This story is probably a post for another day, but just believe me when I say it was really fucked up.

Anyway, I never like to waste an opportunity to get unique footage of something (like destroyed cars) knowing that I'll use it somehow and build a story around it. So I immediately began production on an episodic series I would later edit into my second short film. The premise being my satirical life following the release of my weird short film. This one was more fun and comedic, I worked with whatever people resources I could rally together each week.

I DONT BLAME YOU IF YOU DONT WANT TO READ ALL THIS

Over the next couples years I developed some great relationships with other creators and I became a big part of their own movies and projects, so then I felt like it was time for me to try again. I knew more talented people, I had better equipment, I learned many lessons about storytelling, and all the pieces were in place. In 3 days we shot a cool little short film about kids living in the next Ice Age. We eventually premiered a bunch of these projects at our local theatre, it was a great time.

It also around that time I really made a new effort at being a youtuber. I had made silly sketch videos with my friends all throughout high school, I even had a surprisingly popular stick figure animation series going on back then. But at this time I just wanted to be a comedian, I began making weekly satire videos where I would play characters and shit. Some of it was cringe, some of it was gold, some of it was smart and political, but I just couldn't get to the threshold of a youtube "career".

Eventually I started working at a cable company which sounds boring but its actually a blast! It was then that video production became what I did for a living. I felt no need to make videos anymore, but my foundation of projects that I had put my life into would be for nothing if I didn't continue building upon it. So I shot my 4th short film, the only one I haven't released yet.

No longer was my goal to sell my work, or catapult myself into hollywood with my edgy experimental indy shit, but to make the experimental indy shit because its fun and I believe I'm good at it. I believe I had a unique style. Not everyone appreciates it, but the ones who do feel the same fiery passion about it as me. And at this point, that's really all I'm looking for. Positive energy about making cool shit. It's not about how close to hollywood can I get. I'm making my shit with or without the people who can either embrace or dont get it.

So, that brings me to right now. I feel content with my life, but i'm not making anything anymore. Then I heard about these new places to bring your art and hope for the best.

It was nice to summarize all that to be honest. Thanks for reading it if you did, i'll leave links to my channels if you care to see what I've been talking about.

Again I dont know where to begin here, but maybe this broke the ice, I'll try to participate in the community as much as I can soon.

https://www.youtube.com/user/rorysmakingamovie