This is a hell of a true life story, it is the zeal to never be where they want you to be, you see, no one can give happiness, you have to be happy yourself that is what attract people to you, your happiness should not depend on anyone, you are stronger and you will get there welcome to the community of love, the fact that you want to help people after what you have gone through makes you a rare gem indeed, i am humble by your determination and character that you showed in the face of adversity...well done and see you around.