Introducing myself, my name is EyesOnTheInside! :b

Whaddup fellow Steemians, I'm migrating here to steamit from reddit, I've been on there for about 6 or 7 years and have seen a lot of change on the website, but after gaining around 65,000 total karma (not bragging here, I look at it more as a monument to 6 years of wasted time) I found out about this site, which on the surface looks to me like a reddit clone, where I can get a little bit of money doing something I've already been doing for fun (not to mention for free).

About Me

Anyway here's a brief summary of my life for anybody with nothing better to read, I grew up having a relatively normal life in America, but the summer before my senior year of high school things started heading for the worse, I decided to do crossfit training and within my first two weeks I got a hernia on my spine from flipping a giant-sized tractor tire across the whole parking lot, I didn't realize this until I started getting extreme sciatic nerve pain a few months later, by the end of my senior year I walked with a limp because whenever I moved my right leg it would trigger the herniated disk to punch the nerves on my spine. On top of all this, I had to see my ex-girlfriend of 1-1/2 years date a handful of other guys during the year (I had my own girlfriends too but I did what emotionally immature people do and pine endlessly for my lost love). These two things combined with my dad separating from my mom and leaving the house, culminated in a "downward spiral" as they say.

I'm gonna stop for a bit and say that it might sound like I'm trying to tell a sob story here, but I'm just giving the series of unfortunate events (good show BTW) that have been the last 5 years of my life but, spoiler alert, it ends on a optimistic note so I'm not trying to get any sympathy points (place your pity and cynicism back in their bags).

After I graduated high school I spent my summer days practically bed-ridden (I could somewhat walk but I couldn't do any heavy lifting), visiting my friends, and smoking the devil's lettuce (for medicinal purposes of course). This was where I developed a nasty tendency to stay in my room and be on reddit all day, my parents were also enablers so I never really did any chores around the house (That made me a spoiled and entitled little crappola but I'm not like this anymore, thankfully), I also cultivated a thirst for new music and I was listening to anything people or publications considered classic or a must-hear, I take pride in my music taste but I'm not a snob about it, I'll listen to anything from experimental to pop to orchestral. With all my free time I also studied human social dynamics, psychology, investing, business, movies and how they're filmed, but I digress...

I had surgery on my herniated disk during what should've been the fall semester in my first year of college, so I fell behind everyone that was in my age bracket. the year after that semester I still didn't go to school and looking back I was pretty depressed (I was all healed from my back issues but I had no motivation in life to do anything) and spent everyday in my room on my bed browsing reddit, youtube and social media.

It was like watching everyone move forward with their lives and I was stuck in a bubble of timeless space or at least it seemed that way because everyday was the same, I didn't do anything except fill my head with information that interested me but I didn't have the means or the will to apply it to anything. I guess I did (and still do) this because I loved playing video games and looking at guides online, that taught me that knowledge is power in a video games and that real life is a lot like a video game except more drawn out so I should be looking at things like how to make money and whats the best way "to play," I've also come to realize that all that information means nothing if you don't act on it.

Anyway, before this gets too long, I went to college for a semester, but decided it wasn't for me and had a few part-time jobs where I thought to myself "Is this what normal people do? They do menial tasks for 8 hours a day, then go home for some free time and do the same thing the next day for the rest of their lives?" then I realized that wasn't what I wanted for myself and now after about 4 or 5 years I'm finally taking life more seriously, putting myself in the drivers seat instead of waiting for opportunity to fall into my lap and creating a few online assets that I can build upon to make me money in the future. I've spent the last few years consuming endless information but now I'm putting it into action to start producing more than I consume and share whatever I've learned.

Final Thoughts

Sorry if this became a little aimless or boring but I've never had the chance to tell my life story (if you can even call it that) to anyone before. So tell me what you think, are you a N.E.E.T. like me with no direction in life? have you overcome your issues or at least working on them everyday? Did you have a bad experience with crossfit training and the stupid shit they make you do in those classes? Do you like consuming tons of information on random things like I do?

Tell me if you can or can't relate to this silly situation of mine, or even tell me what you think was dumb and disagree with, or if you'd like me to explain certain things in more detail. I'm also open to receiving any advice or armchair psychological diagnoses on me.

Thanks anyone who took the time to read this, I tried to make it lighthearted but I started really examining my own life while writing this haha, but you'll definitely be seeing me around the site, I plan on doing a series of album recommendations on the music (what are the categories called on here, substeemits?) section and will contribute what ever I can to the community for as long as it exists.

Sincerely Yours,
EyesOnTheInside

P.S. My usernames a reference to Bloodborne if any of you've played it, it has my favorite lore besides dark souls, fallout and elderscrolls.