Welcome aboard, an-coms are in a minority here.
Keep working, stop paying!
You have listed quite an adventurous back trail.
Try this link for reference material that can help you organize things in a beneficial manner?
They used to let me link to The Science of Survival, but they have stopped that and now you just have to look for the link in books.
It's a lot of reading, but it has helped me see your side your story much clearer.
Yeah I've noticed, "an"-caps dominate not only crypto but steemit as a whole. That just means there's more minds to change!
That book looks good, I'll add it to my reading list. Thanks mate~