IDK just felt like typing

My name is 'Jesse Chez' i was born April 8th 1996 and was raised on a small island on the coast of North Carolina. My upbringing was pretty average i think. Being born when i was, allowed me to see the birth of the major gaming consoles, so up to like age 11 or 12 i was either outside playing with the kids in my neighborhood/Sports or inside shooting aliens in the face.

when i turned 12 or 13 my parents P and D had gotten a divorce and all that good stuff and that wasn't really all that bad for me i guess my siblings felt like they had to pick sides and bullshit but i wasn't really like that i would go and live with my dad sometimes in Asheville and then move back in with my mom then go move off somewhere else(Broke af btw)

Then one day when i was like 14 one of my closest friends at the time had just came out and said somethin like "I'm not really supposed to tell you this but i have to get it off my chest, YOUR ADOPTED" and i just played it off like meh who cares iv been with this family forever so fuck the other people.

so now im like 15 and starting to get HARD into drugs...doin em, slangin em, snortin, poppin, smokin, dabbin, droppin, flippin and mixin. Did this for years thanks to a bloomin onion makin money and shit of that sort.
So basically iv just tripped the time away or slump as fuck. And now im almost 22 and i havent sold drugs in quite some time, Probably a couple years. All iv been doing the past couple years is hanging out with my girlfriend smoking weed and being young adults.

And then out of know where my girlfriend says she found my birth family. Which i had looked for ever since i found out that i was adopted. But never could find out enough and it wasn't something my adopted parents wanted to talk to me about. This was about a month and some change ago.

so i guess she goes to these meeting to legalize marijuana around here and it some how came up that my Birth moms cousin is the one that runs it or some shit like that so my girl started getting all this information on my birth family and got me the names of my half siblings and my birth moms phone number. I haven't called my birth mom simply cuz im terrified i'm going to hate her or love her i'm not sure how i feel about a lady who drank and did drugs with me inside of her. that is at least what i had been told. but honestly fuck all that

I started by going on Facebook and searching for my half sister that was closest to me in age and i sent her a message saying like 'Hey this is crazy but i think your brother' and it took her 3 or 4 days to reply but then she was like 'oh shit, ya i always wondered what happened to you cuz Mom always talked about you and shit like that. So then i find a way to get in touch with my Oldest Brother and he was excited i made contact and he made it seem like they have been waiting for me to find them since i was 18 and I am almost 22. He wasn't sure if i would ever hit them up cuz they didnt know where i was and i could of never found them without my amazing girlfriend that still doesn't realize how much it means to me.

We agreed to all meet up this upcoming Saturday and meet for the first time. Im extremely nervous and iv been chuggin kratom tea trying to relax. Its cool that i get to do this but not really sure what the point is.

other than all this drama shit life on a sandbar goes on...the Sun rises and falls...waves come in damaging dunes...we rebuild. repeat.