Hello and welcome to Steemit, @mamap. That's a very open opening post. What you're going through is never an easy thing to deal with, but is almost always the better alternative than continuing down the wrong path. I know that you will like it here, because you will soon find lots of support, sharing, honesty and candidness that's really refreshing and welcoming.

I hope you enjoy Steemit as much as I have been doing.

Great post, thank you for sharing.