My sad story with life.

I am a young man who is 20 years old and I am the oldest of my younger brothers. I live in Gaza City in Palestine. I completed high school in my studies and entered college. I studied for one year and then I finished my junior year. I aspired to be my best life, but now when I grew up I did not wake up anymore. I was expecting that life would be more beautiful, but my physical and emotional situation would not deteriorate very sharply, and I do not have anything to change because in our country there is nothing about life. Little is no work. No requirements for living. There is nothing. Tell me what to do with all the ways of happiness with life closed in my face How long did you will become as I want to work and I want money and I want marriage and life in peace and I am not I do not appreciate