I am 53. Being the baby of a much older family, and for other reasons too complex to delve into here, death has always been a very familiar presence in my life. Yes, it is painful and makes us feel small and helpless, confused and lost, but the growth to be gained in that loss is tremendous! It saddens me that people work so hard to pretend it doesn't exist when it, and birth, are the most hyper-transformational and miraculous events known to mankind and they are afforded to every single human on the planet. Be proud of yourself for your courage and insight and trust me when I tell you that this understanding will continue to grow inside you until it spills forth and comforts those who come after you. Now, go love the hell out of everyone in your life!