How Do You Experience a Fresh Start Without Brushing Your Past Self Under A Rug?

Here is the question of the hour - how do you experience a fresh start in life without brushing your past self under the rug?

For much of my life, I’ve been focusing on trying to expedite external changes -living situation, financial situation, career situation, etc. And to my intense enjoyment, some of those changes are finally on the horizon!

I hopped on a bus this past weekend - just bought a ticket spur of the moment and left. I ended up back in Minneapolis in the heart of downtown, surrounded by skyscrapers. I landed a job interview. I looked at apartments. Then I got back on the bus and came home the next day.

It’s frustrating that years of hemming and hawing were “solved” with just one weekend of brazen self-confidence.

I got the job.
I’m moving.
Things are finally in motion.

Part of me feels like I’m running away, but most of me understands that I’m taking myself with me. I can’t outrun my past, I can’t forget my experiences, I can’t leave the bad memories behind… But I can’t help feeling that this is a fresh start. Not a clean slate per say, but a step forward.

I’m looking for something, looking for a deeper understanding of who I am and what I want my life to look like. I don’t have to move to find these answers, I know I should “look inside,” but I haven’t been able to reflect and grow in my current stagnant situation. I look at this, not as the start of a new beginning, but as the continuation of moving forward.

So here we go friends! One week until my life gets turned upside down! 

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