Hi, thank you. There are always hard moments, these are the times when we mostly grow and change. As long you don't give up, it is all good. Even if you work something else, you could find a few hours a week, even just one to invest in your photography, or just collecting very little savings for 1 or 2 years could pay for a new camera, or just to borrow one time to time. Wish you all the best.