How do I start this...There are so many emotions so much to tell....

Let me start off by saying it's my one week anniversary here in steemit....And it has been one roller coaster ride...Such a ride that I never ever expected...

This past week I have cried I have laughed I have made some amazing friends...And I think some enemies as well..haha...but I am sure we will become friends in the end...I can't be angry forever...I am not such a person...You will know that ofcourse if you have ever talked to me...

First of all I would like to say a big sorry...I know I have not replied to a lot of messages on discord....And a lot of people have told me that I have an attitude...Let me tell you something about myself and I am sure you will understand me after that...

I have come out of all social media platforms like Facebook what's app everything...Every morning when I used to wake up there used to be so many messages...I used to read them all and reply as well..But then throughout the day as well it just keeps on coming...People get angry some of my friends get upset that I am online and I have not yet replied...They feel that I don't give them priority over others...Everybody expects as soon as they put a message I should be free and reply...And once I reply the conversation goes on and it never ends and my other friends see that I am online and not replying and get upset...This went on for years till a time that I had to listen to so much criticism that I just said that's it...I don't need this in my life and I came out off it...

Then I get introduced to steemit by someone who said you don't have inboxes over here...just go and talk whatever you want...and reply whenever you want...I was so happy...some days are so peaceful now..I have all the time for myself and I don't have to worry about anyone...

But then after some days I started getting so many messages in discord...it was like the whole cycle was repeating itself again...it's not that I don't want to reply...I usually reply to everyone...it's not like I don't like talking on discord..I do like it but please understand my problem as well...before you criticise me do put yourself in my shoes...you will understand I don't have an attitude...it's just that I am trying to juggle a lot of things at once...

There was this guy in discord with whom I talked for around 6 days I think...out of all the messages, I used to remove time for him first..he was so nice and I really considered him a good friend...he helped me out as well with some steemit tips...I don't know whether he was drunk yesterday...he asked me for a gift since he helped...I asked him what he needed...he first said send me a selfie..I told him it's already posted on my blog...he says he needs a gift right now...I felt let me just send it to him...so I send him this...can you tell me if there is any thing wrong with this picture?

He tells me that he needs to see something more and deep...I knew what more and deep was...i knew what was coming..I have been through this all my life...I told him this is the best I could do...nothing more...he makes a sad face says he's upset and all that and now he's stopped talking to me...and then people say I have an attitude and I am the bad one...well you stopped talking to me and I really do feel bad beacuse I still consider you my friend...

Haha...I saw this one post in discord and showed it to some of my friends over there...you should have a read at this...it's so funny...I really wanted to upvote this post and comment but I did not want to upset him...

I really am not upset over this..I found this so funny...I really want to talk to you one day if possible...haha...

And finally to all my friends on discord who have helped me with all these wonderful tips...I love you all from the bottom of my heart...you know who you all are...

I will be in touch with you guys even if I go off discord...I will be following your posts and commenting on them and I will never make you guys forget me haha...I will be in touch and will not let go haha...

And in case I am still there on discord I will reply but might take some time...so no hard feelings..just need some time for myself that's it...I hope you guys understand my side of the story and know me better now...

You all have a nice day and keep on steeming....
Love me or Hate me,
Alice